My summer plans

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Lately, I've been a little depressed about leavin to Nicaragua this summer.
I've leaving behind friends, memories, and the best events that only happen once a year, probably once in a life time.

I'm leavin my life behind as a normal teen, to try to change the life of others.
Effing risking my life, in one of the most poorest countries in the world.
Yet in the maturest sense, I know I'll thank myself in the future.

The worst part, the part really makes me depressed, isn't about leavin everything I have behind.
It's that everyone i tell doesn't seem to care.
Like no one understands I'm gonna be sweating and working my entire summer.

i feel like "wtf??"
"you think this is normal??"

From a few days after school ends, till a few weeks before school starts again, I'll be volunteering in a foreign country.
This is not vacation. These people- the average family makes 20$ combined a month.
2 month. I couldn't last 1 month in Europe for vacation without seriously going mad.
What about Swine Flu or i get stabbed? No American hospitals. I don't speak Spanish.

I can't help but think about when i get back, I'm gonna hear stories, about my best buds losing their virginities, going to crazy parties, and "Damn Son you should've been there."
That's what i think about when i think about summer.

At least on the bright side, I know I'll come back a different man, with a new perspective on the world.
I can be proud of myself, for doing something very few Americans get to experience.
I'll have life long changes.

Lets hope so.
May 3rd, 2009 1:22